“Everyone around me just wants to grow up.
But you know what i wish for? I wish i was just a little kid again. The one that was oblivious. I didn’t know what depression felt like. I didn’t know that one day the simplest things like bobby pins and pencil sharpeners would become my greatest weapons. I didn’t know anything but love and safety and happiness, the joys of laughter. My parents didn’t hate me then. Back then, i didn’t have to hide myself from the world. I didn’t spend 90% of the year in long sleeves. My biggest fear used to be someone else hurting me, not me hurting myself.
I want that innocence back. I want that freedom. I want someone to take all these thoughts and plans away from me. Just take the pain and the pressure and these thoughts. PLEASE. I beg you.”